My first real Ex

First i turned to begging,
Then i turned to sorrow,
Then i hated myself,
For reasons i knew few,
Then I thought fuck this!
I started hating you.


Your twisted lies,
To prevoke my smiles,
You made me feel small for fun,
Your jabs and jibes,
All included in your mental manipulation,


And then I hate myself again,
For wasting My time,
My love,
My body,
On you.
'cas now I realise that you never ment those words,
you commonly said
"I love you too."


But hey so what guys still think I'm fit,
I can do better than you,
You greasy bad of shit.